Confession (Performed at the 8th International Poetry Slam Cyprus in 2025)

I am scared standing here tonight.

Looking at you and you looking at me.

I am scared of all the traits that you might see.

All the traits I try to hide, from me, from you, from every one, with all my might.

Don`t you see I am great, I am brave, I am loving and bright.

No harm I can do, wonderful as I am, I am full of light.

God what a lie that is, ……hoping a lie that you will miss.

Hoping you see what not really is, so keep on believing, that would be bliss.

I don’t want you to see that I lie, and betray, don`t always believe in what I say.

Every day I fight for my life, for my sanity, for my right, to be as i need to be…. and to survive.

If you see me as who I am, the lier, the traitor, the beggar, the cunt,
would you respect me, like me, love me, kiss me, and not be blunt……and not tell me to fuck -off.

I am scared standing here tonight.

Looking at you and you looking at me.

But I am not scared anymore of what you might see.

As I have confessed, have found release, have found a seed, a sense, have found some peace.

I am not scared right now of what you might see… because no matter what you see, it’s only a small part of me.